Uneasy

Ok, I know I have made a lot of people uneasy. It’s not a comfortable place, reading all these posts. Hey, it is is very difficult for me as I review and write all this. Please, just try to understand that I am trying to figure my past out, because my present is the path to my future… my present is actually good in many ways. Yet some of it feels too, too good. And I struggle with a lot of what I also feel so happy about. As I said earlier in another post: I am looking backward in order to continue forward… hold my hand…